Last nite, we finally do the talking. (after 48 hours she said that she want to talk to me, but finally Im the one that makes the call. fuck u my gf! )
She told me everything, n finally I think she said the truth.1st 20 minute, i release my 2 weeks anger to her. I cant stand it anymore . Im exploded like mini C4. I said what I want n I asked her everything I need to know. so, how r we now?
I dont know, she said she still remember her ex, n at d same time she felt guilty to me. Ex die still call. N yg ak x bole trima, dia pick up call tu.dia layan!
Dia ckp, dia rasa ksian kat ex die. ak ckp, at least jujur la ngn ak.ni x, die just senyap.die ckp dia da mls mo layan dua2 org.n dia takut ak marah kalo dia gtau suma bnda tu kat ak. hey u, plz la.im rational ok.apa yg kmu wat, salah ke x salah ke, as long ada explanation n justification, ak bole trima ok? mcm la sblom ni ak marah2 dia.
mlm tu, dia mntk maaf.so, ending? our phone call ended with i run out of credit.shit!
so, ak pon xtau apa solution skang ni? dia baik.dia x nk kecikkn ati ak.n sbb dia baik jgk dia rsa kesian kat ex dia.mmg la ssh mo lupa ex, ak bole fhm tu.tp ex dia tu da history ok.
so, my part? i dont know.now i dont have the mood to text her. Im tired of protecting someone n get hurt. I'll just leave it to fate. I told her, the only thing that our relationship can be ended is by U, asking me to break up. I'll definitely not breaking up with U.
But my heart hurt, so, what do I do? I'll find someone to forget about my hurt. Im sorry. if I found someone n start loving her, Im sorry if I have to leave U.bcoz U, just care about urself only.pretending not to hurt me but the truth is, u stab me real deep. A relationship works by both side.not me only!
I dont know y i still love her. In my pray, " Ya Allah kalo btol a**** x loyal ngn ak, bagila ak cepat2 lupakan dia.."
reader plz..need ur help..
take a deep breath and....pegi main futsal ke hape ke sane!
ReplyDeletejgn pikir2 sgt dulu buat masa skang nih!okayyy!
saba.listen to her explanation.she won't purposely dot that to u.its totally true that ex are totally damn hard to forget n u're right about ex=history.but then again, think far ok.dont ever make a decision when u're angry.bincang elok2.gdlux.n take a good care of urself.may God bless both of u
ReplyDelete@ ceguzeha : wokayh! mmg kn bersukan ni..thanx!
ReplyDelete@ ayuni : ok, thnkx for d advice..luckily blog is one of the medium for me to explode.haha.take care too!