Today, I didnt contact her. n so did she. (of coz la kn..) . now that i know the exact thing , i kinda losing hope to struggle to win her bcoz i know she still cant forget her ex.
Besides, I dont feel betrayed anymore bcoz she explain everyhting. I think i can accept if she going back to her ex. But, I do miss her. My motivation 2 accept the fate is by thinking bad about her. Among the things that keep me strong r:
1.she hve slept with me.so, poor her ex.just get my leftover.
2.dia jauh.ssh nk jmpa.
3.she is not calon isteri yg seswai.ak nk cri yg baik. (tp mcm la ak baik sgt.org ckp pompuan yg baik ntuk laki yg baik..) ops... =P
4.etc blblablabalabla...
ntahla, kalo ikut otak ak, mmg ak rs ak xnk die jd wife ak sbb die sensitif, panas baran gak n penipu. BUT, i just cant simply forget her. =(
No matter what, whatever happen, ada hikmah di sebaliknya kan? n ak bole anggap ni sbagai 1 pengalaman ntuk ak so pasni ak lg berhati2...haha..ak ckp ni mcm ak da clash plak.adoi..
ari ni slh sorng bestfren ak call, da lama kami x ckp.n ak cita psl bnda ni kt die.ak ckp pe yg ak wat, pe yg gf ak wat.then, dlm byk2 yg dia komen, 1 yg mnrk perhatian ak, die ckp " ko btol2 siyes ngn die kan? "
owhh ya! y? y? sblom ni ak pernh couple gak tp ak xde la smpai mcm ni.so, it make me do the thinking again. ak jd siyes ni sbb ak btol2 syg die @taupun sbb skang ni ak jobless, xde watpe n satu2nya bnda yg ak bole wat is pikir psl die?? hurmm...make sense jgk tu...
so, ak kn start siyes cri keje.da ade keje g benti plak sblom ni.adoi! nyesal2!
n lg satu, ak fikir psl karma jgk, sblom2 ni kat exes ak, ak x jaga ati dorng, so, mybe ak patut kena cmni kot..tp at least, ak x tipu dorng,ak trs je ckp ak x nk..hurmm..whateva, mmg slh ak pon.gotta admit it.
yg ironinya, start bnda yg x best ni jd, kebetulan ex ak contact ak blk n cite psl mslh die ngn bf die skang. haha..kalo ikut ati ak, nk je ak layan blk ex ak ntuk lupekn sume ni.tp ak kcian kt bf die plak.mesti die rs damn mcm yg ak rsa skang kalo die tau gf die contact ex die blk.
n bila jd cmni, bru la ak tingat nk berdoa kat Allah blk..typical manusia..bila ssh igt Tuhan, bila senang, x igt pe.
haa...
ReplyDeletefirst thing first..
i cant agree less when u said "bila ssh baru igt Tuhan'..itu la yg selalu jadi pd manusia..
termasuklah sy sndri..
tapi, apa2 pun berbalik pada DIA mmg jalan yg terbaik..
kita mgkin merangcang, tapi Allah sebaik2 perancang..
sabar..cuba baiki diri..
pasti ada hikmah Tuhan tetapkan begini..trust me!
and again,
sibuk2kan diri.
jangan banyak termenung cz by that way,
u'll think of her even more.
saya pun pnah lalui itu and alhamdulillah i am glad that i have had my besties =)
so, chill!
its normal and its not wrong if u sumtyms feel lonely n sad.
but, after some cryg,
wake up and face ur day with bright new smile.
past is past.
u dont have to open a new book.
u jz need to tear up the old page and turn to a new one =)