Jealousy Effect Insanity

OK...sumpah aku bengang..

Kisahnye begini..aku suka seorang minah ni..kerja opis ak nama an..but an ni tau yg aku dah ada girlfirend walaupun dia xtau yg aku x syg pon girlfriend aku ni..tp who cares, bg die.aku milik org lain kan..

So emosi aku ni kdg bercampur2..skejap nk kacau an ni ..skejap x nk kacau..time aku kacau, n ak ajk dinner la breakfast la n x dpt, ak rs sakit..so ak ckp kat diri aku,"pasni jgn kacau an lagi...die xde rasa sakit pape pon, ko plak yg sakit2 lebih..die bukan kisah pon".. n bertahan la few days..

then an tegur, aku layankan balik.fuck kan?

so ari ni dkt opis, an tanya ak whether da balik ke blom.ak cakap blom blk lg n die ajak lepak..so aku ni pon satu nk gedik2 test market, ak cakap la yg g la trn dlu lepak ngn dorng (mmbe2 aku)..n die ckp ok.shit kn?konon2 nk expect die nk tggu aku tp x pon....wat sakit ati je..

n mmbe2 ak plak mcm nk jugak kacau die..pdahal masing2 da tau yg aku suka kt an tu..haish...ntah la..jeles ak ni over la aku rasa..i wish i can tell this to someone i know but unfortunately i cant...

this blog is the only medium i can let this feeling...but i know there is no reader...bcoz im not blogginh to attract people..im blogging to let go my feeling..so no over thinking about appropriate word etc2..

fuck me..

so for now, i hope i can keep my distance with an..

an, kalau x suka aku, buat la cara x suka...x yh la msg2 ak.u just give me hope..n i think its cruel...or mybe this is what o deserved for what i have done to others..

Wallahualam..  Ape2pon, mari mengadu kat Allah..he knows better..

Hye All, Im Back..

Hi Rakan2..saya datang kembali..seperti biasa...bila ada masalah, aku perlukan tempat luahan..rahsia sebegini besar sukar untuk ku ceritakan kepada rakan-rakan. mungkin mereka boleh dipercayai, tetapi mereka x lepas dari kesilapan. satu kesilapan dapat memalukan aku dan pihak-pihak tertentu.

But I do, actually told my secret to one of my friend. The only reason is because he is not really in my network / circle of friends. Yeah I do have secret and I cant wait to spit it here..but now is 12.40 am already and as any other normal person who working on Monday morning, I should get enough sleep.that means now.

- Dan sepertimana Hamba2 Jahil, apabila diuji dengan masalah yang berat, kita mula mendongak meminta dipermudahkan..dan apabila kita senang dan gembira, kita leka dan alpa... -