Jealousy Effect Insanity

OK...sumpah aku bengang..

Kisahnye begini..aku suka seorang minah ni..kerja opis ak nama an..but an ni tau yg aku dah ada girlfirend walaupun dia xtau yg aku x syg pon girlfriend aku ni..tp who cares, bg die.aku milik org lain kan..

So emosi aku ni kdg bercampur2..skejap nk kacau an ni ..skejap x nk kacau..time aku kacau, n ak ajk dinner la breakfast la n x dpt, ak rs sakit..so ak ckp kat diri aku,"pasni jgn kacau an lagi...die xde rasa sakit pape pon, ko plak yg sakit2 lebih..die bukan kisah pon".. n bertahan la few days..

then an tegur, aku layankan balik.fuck kan?

so ari ni dkt opis, an tanya ak whether da balik ke blom.ak cakap blom blk lg n die ajak lepak..so aku ni pon satu nk gedik2 test market, ak cakap la yg g la trn dlu lepak ngn dorng (mmbe2 aku)..n die ckp ok.shit kn?konon2 nk expect die nk tggu aku tp x pon....wat sakit ati je..

n mmbe2 ak plak mcm nk jugak kacau die..pdahal masing2 da tau yg aku suka kt an tu..haish...ntah la..jeles ak ni over la aku rasa..i wish i can tell this to someone i know but unfortunately i cant...

this blog is the only medium i can let this feeling...but i know there is no reader...bcoz im not blogginh to attract people..im blogging to let go my feeling..so no over thinking about appropriate word etc2..

fuck me..

so for now, i hope i can keep my distance with an..

an, kalau x suka aku, buat la cara x suka...x yh la msg2 ak.u just give me hope..n i think its cruel...or mybe this is what o deserved for what i have done to others..

Wallahualam..  Ape2pon, mari mengadu kat Allah..he knows better..