Please dont countdown my birthday again..please..no..im begging u..

Tonite is the nite. New Year 2011 aka MY BIRTHDAY. yes i am.i was born on 1st January 1987.

Im turning 24 tonite. when im 18, i cant wait to be in 20 somthing. eager to know how matured i am n how im doing in the future. n tonite, im turning to 24. i kinda sad rite now because i dont like getting older. when u get older, u get more responsibility. people expect u to be more matured. yes i can be matured. but obviously im not in the right track rite now.

i dont want to have any commitment. im happy with my friend. my love life is suck. just break 2 months ago.im pretty sure if i still with u, i will save every penny to marry u..

what have i achieved? nothing.i just working again about 1.5 months. i just started to saving for my future.saving for previous job come to zero. (negative actually.i dig out my tabung haji akaun) haha..

what's my target for this new year..?
-try to saving in ASB.
-try to get a better salary job.. (but the problem is, im having fun with my current job..)
-aiming for a superbike. at least Kawasaki ER-6
-to be a better man.because a good girl is destined for a good man.
-to cheer up my parent. mom n dad, sure u know i love u.but the problem is, im young, u old.our style is different.hihi..(ank derhaka ni..)
thats all for now.i cant thinking any    more..........

what's my wishes for tonite..?
i wish that she will regret what have she done n at least wish me a happy birthday. for us to be together again is impossible, i dont want to be fucked up by u again. although im a man, my heart still functioning well.my heart can be sad too..

another wish, i hope my 1st crush aka my classmate, ivy wishing me too..thats all..

n some entertaining facts about me ( i think so):
my bzday is on 01/01
renew motor roadtax 01/01
renew license 01/01

n every year, i keep repeating the same joke to my friends..like "hey, please dont countdown for my birthday, i having enough..im a low profile man.." haha....fuck me eh? menjengkelkan.

n for u ayin, i really hope i can forget u..my heart say no, but my mind say yes..

here's somthing for u..
"Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving"


The Script - The Man Who Cant Be mOved..

Suspense Holiday Ke x ?

yeay! as im drafting this post, for sure today is a holiday! yeay2 again..x sia2 ak ngn rerakan membusukkn diri n mghabiskan suara g stadium.sokong kaw2! dok sbelah ultras malaya. for the newbies in football term, please wiki what is ultras ok? (act, ak pon bru tau term tu 2 mggu lps.. =P)  yes i admit, im not interested in watching football. but i do play football. very well ok? haha.prasan.enough about football.everyone talking bout it, so what the fuck i keep repeating all the same shit again? my idea is just ordinary, lets people who can dance with words describe our beloved malaysia team.. !! yeay! kudos malaysia!

tp yg  bikin suspennye, smalam time g kerja, ak g dgn smngt berkobar2 sbb happy sgt2 esoknye cuti..tp happy ak tu x berkekalan lama pon.msuk keje kol 9. 9.15 ak dpt tau yg rupa2nya HR x decide lg smada esok cuti ke x? Holyshit! ak da prepare da aktvti ak ntuk cuti tu..kakak n mak ak nak dtg kl ntuk shopping, ak suh dorng dtg awl sbb cuti, then, terpaksa ak cancelkan sbb HR yg wat lmbt kputusan. n the worst case scenario is, ak x bole bygkn kalo ak kene kerja n sume housmte ak cuti! owh, itu satu torture yg mnyakitkan. patutnya guantanamao patut ada jenis torture camni..

Wat d fuck la, decide la awal2.effect semua org tau x?grr...grr..

then, around 2.30 p.m , the good news revealed. hehe..but revealed in a suspense way. what a psycho boss.. hihi..the only phrase i remember is" n the top management has decided to give u'll holiday for tomorrow.."

n last nite, im having a great time.karaoke ngn zaki berbekalkan subwoofer altec lansing capang n plug in lyrics for window media player. ptg tu main bmton. pastu boring x tau nk wtpe + lapar. tdo sejam smpai kol 1 pg.then kuar mkn kat telawi bgsar. n the best part is kami telah menghampiri zina skit2..haha..g usya amoi2 kat jln pasar. ramai gler kat ctu.rasa cam selamat lak.selalunya kalo tempat2 camtu mesti diiringi ngan perasaan takut2 skit.tapi kali ni x.mne x nye, sume guys yg dtg muka jambu n baik cam ak. haha.

"ok la, 60 skali kongkek maaa.." placur (nama dirahsiakan) tgh adjust sorng mamat gersang aka loser. for sure die xde awek hot. kalo ade awek hot, da kompom2 la main ngn awek je. ok, sbt psl main, ni wat ak tingat kat that bitch blk (my ex la.sape lg ak refer bitch kalo bkn die.).fuck tol.fokus .fokus. divert2 pk psl bnda lain.i can do it.

n in another 4 hours, i'll be going for a jumaat prayer then pick up my mom n sis at jalan duta..irony rite? parts of my blog content is completely different with my 4 hours to come personality.haha

girls out there, choose carefully.we r master of disguise. =)

n bitch, here is some words u should think about..

"He's more than a man

And this is more than love

The reason that this sky is blue

But clouds are rolling in

Because I'm gone again

And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dyin'"

unfaithful by rihanna. its killing me. ='(

Jalan Jem or Jam (whateva)

If u are living long enough in KL, u'll notice this..

1. the road near penjara pudu (gone already) to jusco maluri is effing hectic with bus.im as kipas susah mati rider, (penungggang moto la tu mksudnye...sje nk exggerate skit.) sgt tensi dgn keadaan ini.bygkn, kami penungggang moto pkai space skit je. lets assume 1 foot only la space yg kami pkai dlm slebar2 jalan kat ctu..

tu pon kami x dpt nk nyelit.sume ni slh bas! haha..bestnya blame memblame..

plus dgn prasaan blk keja yg x puas hati sbb bos ko asyik nk sume urgent.n lg sorng plak asyik ckp n ckp smpai abeh masa ak ntuk wat keje ak..what the fuck man. but life is life.if u cant handle it, find another job la.but if u cant afford to lose that job, just bear with it n blog about it la.like im doing now! sorry for the harsh word again.

owh, somthing to cheer me up..




grenade by bruno mars. awesome voice but not so good looking...

here is today quote for u bitch..

"To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had"

My Dark Side reveal..Peduli Hape ak, korng bkn tau pon ak sape..

Hari ni aku baca blog obefiend. nice n interesting blog.slamber.cool.write wihtout any limit...

Thats what i wanna do actually...im tired of all the limitation..y? sebab aku selalu nak jaga personaliti aku.aku berubah2 bila jumpa orang.kalo orang ni aku rasa baik, ak pon jadi baik..kalo org ni prngai cam sial, ak pon jadi same cam die r..what u expect? im not good at all..

tapi ramai perempuan yg blom knl ak betul2 ckp ak baik sangat...the truth is, im just a hipocrit fucking liar! but one thing i concern, i dont want anything bad about me be known to my family..i dont want them feel ashamed with me..owh, thats my weekness eh? fuck!

i reeaally want someone i like can accept me even know she know the truth..for now, i've met someone that can accept me..but the problem is, i dont like her..no spark!

ok, now because im in obefiend blog mood, i wanna describe about his blog. several thing i notice is, dlm blog die, die x banyak pakai short form..(x mcm ak, ak mls nk tulis full)..n die jugak rajin mengupload gambar n photoshop..which mean, die punya technical psl photoshop at least msti ok punya la..n internet die pon laju.x mcm ak.

speaking of internet, now i wonder if the reason y me n my fucking selfish ex broke up? its all start when we rarely skype..at first, every night bfore sleep, we will skype like hell...till sleep..n i still remember im watching u sleeping through my crystal eye webcam..damn miss that moment! hope u know how crazy i am missing u!..  but i know u dont..

here got some quote for u ..especially for u bitch!..

"You selfish bitch, I hope you fuckin' burn in hell for this shit" - eminem, cleaning out my closet"

haha..puas hati aku? im writing like crazy people eh? yup i am! im crazy for this girl..the reason y i do this nonsense fucking shit is all bcoz of that bitch!  before this, im fucked up all the people that blogging..but then, i read obefiend blog.n i think im kinda inspired by what he wrote.who cares what am i gonna write? i just want to express my anger n release all my fucking uneasy feeling inside.!

then, talking about release? fuck me! i just masturbating twice! no one at home.futsal n football..im a sportman but that thing dont atttract me tonight...i need rest.i need to do some reading..a quality reading.obefiend mybe...owh god! y am i so exaggeratting this fucking blog? ops before that,,here's a link..http://obefiend.blogspot.com..just copy paste it..im not fucking hi tech guy to prepare u a fancy link..im here providing info.n most of them is my bullshit feeling.so what? sorry is just a good word for u all guys that dont satisfied with me!

Perempuan..

Da sbulan lebih ak clash ngn awek ak..i've make progress to forget her..
N situation skng, ex ak (1st awek) ak contact ak ajk kawin..
ex #2 (yg ak x prnh syg) still msg ak jgk wlopon ak dgn jelas explain kat die yg satu2nya sbb ak bole layan dia is sbb sex!
n ade 1 awek kat tmpt ak bru kje ni, asyik msg ak n cite psl problem die.freehair.byk guys lain suka die.bomba officer pon suka die.tp ak x suka die lgsung sbb x cun pon ak tgok.cmne la guys lain bole suka? xde taste ke?


n plg latest, smalam masa lepak kat kedai tomyan kt area umah ak, ak dgn slambenya mntk no phone awek yg ak usya tu...n dpt...


n hari ni baru ak dpt tau yg rupa2nya die da kawin...


ayin, if u read this.i do miss u.now u know my dark side.all this time, i try so hard to not reveal any of this side to u..mybe u deserve someone better..mybe ur decision is right..

..

Truth

Its been a Month

Its been a month since i curse her..i didnt mean to break your heart...but u break mine 1st..
i dont want to look silly just accepting what u did to me...
i want u to realized n suffer for what u've done..
but in d same time, i really love n care for u..
but baby, now its been a month...i still remember all the things we have done..every time i want to sleep..n every time i wake up..i remember u..i see u through everything..
i know ur love is just a lie n this is not right...i wish i can easily forget u baby...i hope i can forgive u n we can be fren..
but dont u worry, its been a month..i keep trying to make myself busy..
i'll find someone to forget u..
take cre baby..