I want my old life back...

I want old me that never felt the meaning of love....
some said that u should be grateful because u've feel it...
im grateful....but i really dont like the ending...its been 2.5 months n y i cant still forget her??

should i be bad?
should i screw every girl i met?
but how come i can make her like me if me myself dont really like her..
n i know for now i just miss u .
but the facts too cruel.

Bila Haku menulis..

Ok, my life sucks. sena x msg ak lg sbb ak wat prngai..marah die...
nadia psycho pon x msg ak sbb ak x reply...
n una pon x msg ak sbb ak x msg dia dlu..

haha...aku pon xtau ak suka or x feeling ni..
tp ak rs cm sunyi plak..wth happen to me?
or mybe becoz of this date?? 17 jan 2011?
oowhh...i still remember the solid capricorn glass i gave to her...
efff.....
this feeling is so sstrong...i though i already forget u...
sighh.....God please help me..
zaki n cpg pon xde kt rumah skang??man tdo...
Im lonely!!!!!!

N I miss u So muchhh baby...

N my friend already started his own blog..n he asked for mine..nahh..thats not gonna happen..
i dont want to look pathetic n loser...

8 months ago, u make me enjoy life so much......
and 2 months ago, u make me learnt the meaning of pain...
i dont know...part of myself wat u to suffer...parts of it wants u happy...
i really cantttt...

owhh....i dont think i wanna stop here..
i hope i can be as good as eminem..
make me popular..n mybe u will have a glance at me again?

Happy Birthday Kamu..

17 Januari...Hari ni bzday si dia..tp aku mls nk wish sbb kalo dia reply nnti, akn wat ak tingat dia blk...

Anyway, I still want to wish U a Happy Birthday...

So, Happy Birthday ayin...Take Care of Yourself..be a good girl..

Relationship Based On About 5 Short Messages Everyday? (171010-2200hrs)

Its been about 2 weeks since me n my gf get in touch just by short messages everyday. Its not that we cant afford d cost 2 call or to skype. But I think she cant afford to express her feeling to me anymore. She said, "xnk beria2".


I can understand that, but how come 2 people in love just being conncted by short messages?
No FB
No Call
No Extra messages...


is it enough to express love to each other? we r in a long distance relationship, i really hope u can show a little bit effort. bcoz im putting too much effort here n im losing my patience bit by bit..for now, i'll just go with the flow..

Im fucked up! (121010-2007hrs)

Bru pas smyg mghrib, n ak rs mcm half emotional plak.everyhting started like this.
4.30pm - msg "her"
5.00pm - msg deliverd n she replied (2 times, msg yg sama).ak x trs reply.ak hold dulu dlm 30 mnt.
5.30pm - ak reply n smpai skang msg tu x delivered2 lg! fuck2!!!


so, skng ni ak rs mcm nk cek plak phone dia ngn mmbe customer service ak.bpa byk yg dia msg ari2.sape yg die msg.tp ak takut ak get hurt!!


she said she loves me but y she treat me like this?? hurm...player! rite?? player is the rite answer.


so, now i decide to not msg her unless she text me 1st.haha


sshnya prasaan ni.byk bnda yg ak pk.
1. rs nk trs trg n nk clash je - (tp ak takut kalo dia mmg da brubah, x nk msg beria2 tp still suka ak tp bila ak da ckp cmtu dia kcewa n trima clash tu.pastu ak yg nyesal! )
2.  ak rs nk permain dia.layan je pe die wat.ak bukan rugi pape pon.msg skit je pon. (tp bila ak lyn cmtu, ak rs mcm dia suka ak,n bila ak rs cmtu, ak jdi paranoid balik).




papepon, ak da dcide amek decision ke2, n dlm msa yg sama cri awek baru.bila ak da suka awek tu, bru la ak bole clash ngn dia,at least ak da x rs sedey.kan? kann? people.help me! need couple advise!


anyway, im going out for badminton later!!! God, i love badminton! n How I met Your Mother n her.hahaha


c ya!

Tiba2 Bersemangat.. (111010-1615hrs)

Bru lps smyg asar, n tiba2 masa smyg, ak asyik pikir psal nk blog..ntah knapa..haha..(mybe setan kacau tu kn..)


OK, so hari ni ak start blog.actually, I hate blog bcoz I cant express every little detail of my thought bcoz Im worry if the reader will get hurt ( if they are my friend, n they know i talk bad about them : like sapa makan cili, trasa la pedasnya..haha)..


then i was thinking that if im being anonymous, no one will get hurt...so, all my objectives will be achieved. 


my objectives:
1.blog psl hidop ak, n nk org komen or bg pendapat/pandangan/blablbalababla..
2.tp x nk org tau sape ak.haha..


actually, byk mo tulis, tp one thing i learn about blog, u better write a short entry unless ur content n words are very interesting.so, disebabkan ak rasa ak pnya entry ni x best mana pon, better ak benti stakat ni.nnti ak post entry lg.huhu...


kpd sesapa yg follow ak sbb kcian or sbb nk return budi baik ak follow blog dia, time ksih banyak2 eh.. inni sirriyyes.. (wonderpets, 2009) haha..