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Feels good to know someone that have same problem like me..

2 weeks after..

“I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me – I’m going to smile.”

11th day

Woaa!! This is awesome..! ak berjaya bertahan ntuk x msg die slama 11 hari..ok2, mari pertahankn rekod ni..  (x lama lg bole giler ak ni..)

Still Struggling..26/10/10 - 1656hrs

Smalam dia msg.ak x reply.ak tkut ntuk berharap lagi.sbenarnya, ak da x nk tulis apa2 yg berkaitn dgn dia sbb ak takut nnti ak tingtkn die lg..ari ni ari ke 7 ak x contact die.ak bz kan diri ak, msg blk ngn ex ak, mlepak ngn kwn, tgok tv, tdo.etc. even mandi pon, ak mndi slow2 sbb nk krgkn ms ntuk pk psl die.


ini gila.stupid.ridiculous.


i should stop.i should be in control.


skang otak ak da x skt cm dlu, tp ntuk trs lupa die bkn kerja mudah. pg2 wktu amek wuduk, otak ak otomatik terpikir dlu psl die. apa2pon, ade hikmah d sblk ni..ak da start bc quran blk n g surau.sbb 
dgn wat cmtu, ak dpt krgkn pk psl die n ati ak tenang. Ya Allah, bimbing ak. ampunkn sgala khilafku.ku pinta someone yg dpt membimbingku.. (ee..cam geli plak ayt ni..)  i lost hope in love.

life is too short to be unhappy (211010 - 1251 hrs)

mcm yg korng tau, ak tgh struggle ntuk lupakan bnda yg xbez dlm idop ak n cb ntuk x pk. so, ari ni ak nk blk kg. da 5 hari ak kt umah mmbe ak.life is not so good. no news bout my intrvw. (ak assume x dpt), mf gf yg ak syg confuse ngn prasaan dia sndri. i wish i've reset button at my head. (tb2 tingat himym). so, otw nk g stesen bas, ak nek 2 bas rapidkl.kedua2 driver bas yg ak jmpa, dua2 sporting n happy go lucky..n its somehow made my day..today is d 3rd day her n me keep silent.i hope in my next entry, i already stop thinking bout her. like one of my philippine fren said, life is too short to be unhappy.thanx chim.. 




n chim is her name....

Think iM suffer enough? No im not.others suffer more than me.

sorng kwn cite kat ak psl kwn die.umo skang 38. ak tnye die apsl x kwin2 g. kwn ak ckp sbb dlu msa da plan nk kawen, awek die buat hal.so, pas2 die mcm mls nk lyn da..die mls nk kwin awl, die ckp nk relax2 jap dlu. tp smpai skang, die still x kwin2 sbb die da xde rs 2..hurm, efek smpai cmtu skali kan...dhsyat2..hope i'll not be like him juz bcoz a stupid immature girl. im gonna be ok. =) believe!

Lets Moving ON! 201010-1658HRS

Today, I didnt contact her. n so did she. (of coz la kn..) . now that i know the exact thing , i kinda losing hope to struggle to win her bcoz i know she still cant forget her ex. 


Besides, I dont feel betrayed anymore bcoz she explain everyhting. I think i can accept if she going back to her ex. But, I do miss her. My motivation 2 accept the fate is by thinking bad about her. Among the things that keep me strong r:
1.she hve slept with me.so, poor her ex.just get my leftover.
2.dia jauh.ssh nk jmpa.
3.she is not calon isteri yg seswai.ak nk cri yg baik. (tp mcm la ak baik sgt.org ckp pompuan yg baik ntuk laki yg baik..) ops... =P
4.etc blblablabalabla...


ntahla, kalo ikut otak ak, mmg ak rs ak xnk die jd wife ak sbb die sensitif, panas baran gak n penipu. BUT, i just cant simply forget her. =(


No matter what, whatever happen, ada hikmah di sebaliknya kan?  n ak bole anggap ni sbagai 1 pengalaman ntuk ak so pasni ak lg berhati2...haha..ak ckp ni mcm ak da clash plak.adoi..


ari ni slh sorng bestfren ak call, da lama kami x ckp.n ak cita psl bnda ni kt die.ak ckp pe yg ak wat, pe yg gf ak wat.then, dlm byk2 yg dia komen, 1 yg mnrk perhatian ak, die ckp " ko btol2 siyes ngn die kan? " 


owhh ya! y? y? sblom ni ak pernh couple gak tp ak xde la smpai mcm ni.so, it make me do the thinking again. ak jd siyes ni sbb ak btol2 syg die @taupun sbb skang ni ak jobless, xde watpe n satu2nya bnda yg ak bole wat is pikir psl die?? hurmm...make sense jgk tu...


so, ak kn start siyes cri keje.da ade keje g benti plak sblom ni.adoi! nyesal2!


n lg satu, ak fikir psl karma jgk, sblom2 ni kat exes ak, ak x jaga ati dorng, so, mybe ak patut kena cmni kot..tp at least, ak x tipu dorng,ak trs je ckp ak x nk..hurmm..whateva, mmg slh ak pon.gotta admit it.


yg ironinya, start bnda yg x best ni jd, kebetulan ex ak contact ak blk n cite psl mslh die ngn bf die skang. haha..kalo ikut ati ak, nk je ak layan blk ex ak ntuk lupekn sume ni.tp ak kcian kt bf die plak.mesti die rs damn mcm yg ak rsa skang kalo die tau gf die contact ex die blk.


n bila jd cmni, bru la ak tingat nk berdoa kat Allah blk..typical manusia..bila ssh igt Tuhan, bila senang, x igt pe.