Sakit Jantung

Hari ni berbuka dengan membe time lunch dekat maybank.pening aku dengan kerja kurang sikit sebab dapat sembang2 time berbuka

Hari ni kerja suck gile weh.pressure nak mampus.dah la aku da menghadapi symptom2 sakit jantung.time pressure sebab deadline around the corner je,mesti dada aku rasa x sedap.kanapakah?kalau la betol sebab kerja,bapak x puas ati nye ak.mati sbb kerja?holy shit ..

Hari ni baskin robbin free jugak sebab penghargaan kat chong wei.time aku tulis ni,aku tengah tunggu nadia.kami nak p makan eskrem sesame. :) Ok skian dulu.btw,tiket bas x beli lagi....kalo la ade emoticon menggelabah dlm whatspp tu,mesti aku da wat dalam blog ni.haha.take care.

& Our Story Should End Here

okey..baru lepas baca blog hanis zalikha.mmg best.sempoi, fresh n komen mmg dr aspek sorng pompuan la.kwn2 i pon sometyime komen cmtu..n i suka dengar..hehe..

ok, one thing about blogger2 hardcore skalian is depa ni ada identiti...how? ok contoh is: kalo guna kata ganti diri is "aku" , aku la memanjang dr awl smpi abeh. x mcm aku, ak kejap2 i la, aku la ape la.haha.

ok, ni bkn nk komen psl blog sbenanrnya..ini ak k tulis psl ak.psl nadia..again..

post ni ak nk tls kaw2 panjang.biar org mnymph nk baca pon xpe.haha.. (berharap)

actually, things between me n nadia completely change compare to past 5 or 6 months..

dulu bila ak bc blk post2 lama, ak da meroyan btol ngn ex sabah ak tu.ape yg bestnye pon ak tatau.sbb cun la kot. tp apsl ak rs nadia x cun?sume org ckp die cun.ak sorng je x.hahaha...klo die cun kan sng.msti awal2 lg ak da suka.

dlm post2 lama, ak asyik kutuk nadia je.ckp byk majuk la pe la..actually, i've started to like her..byk bnda da brubah..dlu gaduh, maki2 sume kuar.die pon x kurang hebat x nk kalah dgn makian ak.tp skang da slow down skit

dulu x pkai tudung free hair, suar legging, skirt, baju kecik etc2.SKANG da pkai tudung.dlm lebih kurang 2 bulan gak la.since ak ilang phone s2 ku.hukhuk..fist time jmpa die pkai tudung, mcm indon pon ade ak tgok.haha.."Hi ustazah..!" ak ckp kt die.terus majuk.. hhahaha..kalo x majuk mmg bkn nadia la namanye..

dulu mcm nk sume bnda kita fhm psl die...tp skang die try fhmkn ak..especially time ak bz dgn kerja bangang ni..shit..

tp, still few things x brubah la.i guess that want fundamental to create "Nadia"..

hehe...dlu ak privacykan idop ak x nk bg die tau.org lain dlm idop ak pon ak x nk bg dorng tau psl kewujudan nadia..skang da x, ak bwk die lepak skali tgok futsal bmton etc2..ok, tingat!! demmm!

kesimpulannye, things get better la..tp tiba2 nadia ni benti kerja n stay kat kg.so, dtg jumpa ak skali skala je..dlm 2 mggu skali.n skali tu lama gak laa...sminggu gak la die berkampung kt sini..hehe..yg x bestnya, bila jumpa, ok bahagia.baik je.TAPI, bila die blk kg je, mula la die ckp ak lain la..brubah la..wth?ak pon xtau pe yg ak da berubah kot.mne aci just simply ckp je kan? klo ak tiba2 ckp kt sape2 yg die gitu gini tanpa bukti yg kukuh x fair kan? haish la nadia2...

so last2, recent case is die byk complaint ak itu ini.ckp ak x ckp masa utk die la ape la..the thing is, the way she complaint yg ak x thn..

ok contoh: die x puas ati ak x ckup masa dgn die.so y not she just ckp "awk, lately ni mcm kurang je masa utk sy, spend la skit masa utk sy.cian la sy.." ok, ak klo org ckp baik2 ksian cmni mmg ak buat punya...tp tu impian je la..

how nadia talks is like this:
aku: awk, jap g sy nk g sahur ngn kawan jap eh...mybe area uptown damansara kot.
dia: awk ni, kuar ngn kwn bole! tp dgn saya abaikan,da la smalam x call.blablabla2.
aku: still x nk gaduh, ak ckp la elok2 skit..ok, sy janji pas abeh sahur kang blk tu sy call awk eh?
so wht im expect is die akn ckp ok ke pe ke.ni x, complaint dr mula2 dunia wujud smpai la skang..

eee...KLO BYK SGT COMPLAINT PSL AK, Y KO SUKA AK SGT2??

so pg td da smpai klimak.ak decide ak nk sop dgn die.ak rs mmg ktorng akn bergaduh je..seriously, its hard to really care someone yg kita x fully syg lg.,n im still not sure klo org yg ak btol2 syg wat prangai cam nadia ni, ak still bole bertahan ke x.

so smalam pas decide nk putus, die call ckp blk psl pe sume kenangan..suruh ak take care..she really knows me.baik buruk.cmne ak layan pon msti die cari ak punya..die mmg penyanyang...klo ak ada anak, mmg ibu camtu la yg ak cari...n i believe kalo family ak sakit pon msti die org satu yg akn jaga. seriously. byk sgt bnda baik psl die..(nnti nk tulis post psl kebaikan die je la.)tp what to do..ak still x bole thn part sensitif n majuk isu yg ntah ape2..

smalam masa die call, byk yg die ckp...die doakan ak.die sygkan aku sgt..ak plak dgn ego + acah2 kental diam je.just ckp ok,u too..tu pon dgn nada kerek..

haish, kcian nadia, i wish after we separate, i can take care of her without she knowing..she deserved it,,,bcoz her love is pure...so tebai.

so esok ktorng akn jmpa wat kali terakhir n selesaikan pe yg patut....e.g: delete gmbr yg bukan2 kat phone msg2 etc2 la..

Nadia ######, sy harap sgt awk dpt jumpa laki yg btol2 baik n bole jaga awak cmne yg awk nak..sy hrp awk dpt lupakan sy..demi Allah, sy bkn putus sbb sy ade pompuan lain...sy putus sbb sy x thn..n sy x nk maki2 awk lg..awk take care ok..sy hrp sgt awk bahagia...da lama awk cari kebahagiaan tu..

p/s: ktorng ade plan nk buat blog sama2..tp looks like plan tu cam kn stop je.. (or mybe on hold..)

Blogging Back

Weuhh...its been a while..about 8 months since my last post.

 Well..lately i feel like blogging again.bcoz too many to express here.if i put it in fb,people will say blbabla.mls.byk hati nk kn jaga. Same goes to twitter.last2 pendam je la dlm ati.but ati x ckup kuat nk simpan.die nk attention.even from total stranger. 

 So d only medium that i have is this blog.i'll just assume someone will read this n know what i feel .although maybe the fact is no one reading.pathetic me.

 Ok ,i sgt mngantuk nye pon adui.tp for sure these are d few topics that i've in mind for my next post:

 My ex is now my gf bff
 My relationship with nadia-1 step further
 My late samsung s2.may u lost in peace
My fucking working life @ Maybank as a risk exec

C ya! Slamat berpuasa semua. :)

Akhirnya..benda yang ak bimbang hilang..

Yeay!ari ni segala benda yg ak risau pasal nadia which is she pregnant hilang.ujian doc da terbukti.die just sakit dlam perut rupanya.wlopon itu mrupakan satu masalah,tp at least x memalukan ak n nadia.

For me,seriously ak happy sbb ak bole jalankan idop ak scara normal. Utk nadia plak,die mmg pelik skit.die ckp happy skit,x happy pon ade sbb die takut ak tggl die.hurmm..padahal ak x nk tggl die pon.ak just x nk fmily ak tau psl bnda jht yg ak wat je.

Mungkin Allah nk bg signal kat ak utk bertaubat..tp ak still cmni.dalam hati nk brubah.tp psl sex ni ssh skit la.kalo la ak xde nfsu sex,msti dosaak da byk brkurang.

Ape2pon,im happy.yeay!baru la bersemangt nk wat kerja lain.hehehe.

Shit happen! n this shit is bigger than any other shit i've faced.

Last few days,my skandal nadia ckp die rasa pening2 n mcm nk muntah.1st thing in my mind,shes pregnant.demmit.

Ak da terbayang cmne la kalo die btol2 pregnant.bapak cuaknye aku.ak x nk fmily ak malu sbb ak.mak ayh ak ustaz n ustzh kot.arghhh!

Tp ak sgt yakin yg ak x pncut dlm pon.sgt yakin ok.tp ak pk mybe Allah nl tnjuk sbb ak byk sgt wat dosa.

Then ak gtau kat nadia pe yg ak akn wat kalo die btol2 prgnnt.ak ckp kt die ak bole kawin dgn die tp ak nk sume tu secret.means fmily ak xtau.kwn ak pon xtau.die ckp ok.die bole trima kalau ak tggl die pon sbb die tau ak mmg x prnh syg die.die ckp kalo fmily die buang die pon die sggup.yg psti die x kn gugur ank tu sbb die syg..terharu ak dgr..

Cmne pon,tggu je die abeh period then baru wat pregnancy test..Kalo la nadia btol2 prgnnt,my life would be suck.i lost all my friend,my family.. =( mybe Allah nak tunjuk kat ak ats dosa yg ak buat slama ni..

hihi..im sorry nadia.i know i always hurt u.

Hurmm...nadia ni mmg suka majuk.slalu die majuk ak mls nk layan je sbb majuk die slalunye jenis mmberontak.so ak biar je la..tp baru2 ni die ade majuk n die senyap je.ahh sudah..ni yg ak rsau ni..dr ctu ak pk2 blk,mmg byk gak bnda yg ak kasar dengan die..sso,ak pon pujuk la die blk..suara die pon mcm majuk2 suka je..hurmm..dr ctu ak rs best lak,x kn ak da syg die kot?hurmm..owh tidak...

A Miscall Is Enough to trigger that feeling again! wtf

Got a miscall from my ex aka liar bitch. N voice mail. Listened to it n it sound like someone crying. Hurm, yes I hate U, but i still care. Then I called her, but didnt pick up.

My feeling that was buried months ago, now feels like to crawling out from the buried grave. Fuck, I thought I was OK. I thought I can handle everything. (thankx to nadia.bcoz of U i can forget her a little bit)

So, few days later, she called me,. I answered. "Hellow, sepa ni?" FFUUCCKKK! tu yg kuar dari mulut ko? then ak reply, "apsal tanya sape plak, u yg call?"

haish.demmit.x kn die da lupa no ak?

if lupa, how can u called me at the first place?

whatever it is, i hope im ok. n u bitch, I hope u got a lesson.